Disclaimer: Lame Post Ahead. Not Worth Your Time At All. You Have Been Warned

There comes a day when we resign ourselves for the day and feel that nothing significant can be done. It is a kind of a leave when you are not even working for anyone in particular. That is to say that you convince yourselves that the day was for idling and musing about nothing. 

Today is one of those days for me as I’m traveling from Kakinada to Hyderabad in a second-class railway compartment. Co-passengers are as disappointed with me as I’m with them and everyone was asleep or trying to. I wanted to shut the mind off thoughts but could not do so. Then I wanted to think about something, oh I have a lot to think about but I kept reminding myself that today was not the day for any serious thinking. Anyway I was never a good thinker when I was hungry and some horrible decisions always ensued when I have done so earlier. I admonished myself mildly for having declined the food my mom asked me to have before starting.

Now I’m not the sort of person who is very fussy about the setting and mood for writing so I chose to write some light-hearted fiction. I thought of some circumstances, put people in them, played along with them but nothing was working out. I realized you just couldn’t do that sort of thing to people even those whom you have no idea about. Then I read something similar to what I set out to write and it was neatly done. All my discarded endings thanked me and I felt this one could not have been bettered at least by me today. 

Someone on my facebook shared the trailer of Madhur Bhandarkar’s Heroine, but my reliance net connect was adamant that I wait some time before I could watch Kareena without having to stop midway. I started to read Dortmunder. Normally I would find him amusing but today he looked very lame with his attempts and even the train with all its to and fro movements was hardly any help to read. I quickly turned off my kindle and checked out if the buffering completed. It did and I saw the trailer and hated it. The colors were too much for my eye and except the pouts and other sensuous moves of Kareena there was nothing I haven’t seen earlier in other Bhandarkar movies.

I think this would end up as the lamest of my posts and it looks like I have written too much to salvage it now. May be I would not share it on social networking platforms or may be I’m not good enough this time around or may be I was never good enough. For everything this one fails to achieve a thought will linger on my mind sometime in the near future that even I’m capable of reaching a minimum word count without actually having anything on my mind. May be it was never a good thing to take that goddamn leave after all.